No Change

I feel like we got lost. I miss you.

Nothing has changed, yet everything seems so different.

It doesn't matter where I am or where I go, I always see you.

This always stays the same.

I’ve lost more than I deserve.

I want more than I think is fair to ask.

I’d desire to live forever, especially if you’d be there too. 

On The Outside Looking In

Have you ever looked through a window and watched a muted conversation? You can derive your own meaning from the exchange, invent a dialogue, and invent a possible reality. 

Can you ever really know a person? Their struggles, their motives, their fears, and their desires? I would argue that you never can if you are on the outside looking in. 

If you really love someone, you will try to understand, but you will know you are never going to completely and you will accept that. 

Most people want to be understood, but it takes a special person to also want to understand. 

Evolution

There's something to be said about the person that thinks they have it all figured out. What do they have figured out exactly?

If you have it all figured out, haven't you become an evolutionary dead end?

The only way to continue to grow is to continue to learn.

I love the fact that I have nothing figured out and I always have something to learn. What differentiates us most as a species isn't our race, class, or gender. What differentiates us is our life's teachers and how we seek, ascertain, assimilate, and apply the knowledge we have earned or were given.

I realize that race, class, and gender play a huge role in the knowledge that most readily finds us and the knowledge we most readily seek, but as we uniquely define our world, and as we uniquely define ourselves (as something more than our race, class, or gender), we must not forget to keep that definition dynamic.

You know only a small sliver of what there is to learn, don't be afraid to let what knowledge you find change and innovate you. But most importantly, don't be afraid to keep learning; don't become an evolutionary dead end!

Latitude and Longitude

It's pouring down rain in Lexington. How is the weather there?

Small changes in our positioning, can change everything.

If we have a moral compass, what other built in positioning systems do we have? When we arrive at our destination, do we just know this, intuitvely? Is there something greater than ourselves, guiding us? Or do we have everything we need to know inside of us from the beginning, just waiting to be seen and heard. The greatest gift we could have ever been given, the power to know, without knowing. The ability to find without seeking. Ha. Fucking Buddha. Clearly seeping into my brain, my words. So funny.

Don't be afraid to let the rain do it's job. Whether it is cleansing, creating, or destroying.

What You Know

There are times in our lives when we must trade in what we know, for what we could learn.

Departures and Arrivals

I haven't written because I have been busy....living! Of course in love with life as usual...and madly as ever.

Guess what!? The impossible happened. The impossible happens often, so maybe what they say is true. Nothing is impossible...

Falling in love again...I thought impossible. But I was wrong...again! And I can't fucking believe it. I thought maybe I could with him. I thought just maybe....and so I moved to Lexington on a maybe. Fucking "maybe," and "possibly," and "potentially," and holy shit....!!! my gut was right. As usual.What we see and know in the Blink of an eye is astounding. Pay attention....pay close attention.

I don't know what my future holds, but I know it is so bright it is blinding. Nothing fancy, just everything real and special that a person needs in order to know with every cell of her body how precious Life is, and how connected the universe is to the soul. All of this is my choice to believe.This world is mine to create. This life is mine to write.

I departed from my home over 6 months ago with no idea what to expect. When everything that defines us, is suddenly gone, I think we arrive at a door of possibility that previously never existed. Don't be afraid to open the door!