Sometimes, forgetting is so easy. Other times, it is nearly impossible.
I just got back from the antique store down the street. I always make a point to tell the owners how much I adore their store, and they love to hear this. Today I made some very special buys that my grandmother would love. You know what I love? That she is always with me. Especially now, at Christmas time. I love to hear her talk to me.
And guess who has been with me for about 8 days now??? Jim. Loud and clear in my brain all the time, just talking up a storm. Yesterday I was in such a hurry. I was running back into the house and I slipped and fell on my wet, stone pathway. I cut my hand and got my jeans dirty. All I could hear inside my brain was Jim saying, as he did so many times before when I was a child, "Slow down, Celeste." I sat there for a minute and decided to talk back to him. I sighed and said, "I know, Jim. I know. You are right. I will." And I got up slowly.
I feel so good about life. So thankful. Gratitude in full force and right on time because Christmas is coming!! I can't wait to see Maddox open his gifts. I can't wait to ring in the New Year at Raeanne's, and I can't wait to see what 2012 will bring. Things have already begun to change and I just know something special is going to happen in 2012. I don't know what it is yet, so it feels like Christmas in my mind all the time right now. Something is waiting to be opened!
