I have this annoying itch in my throat. I have an itch period. Something, something, something, I can't quite reach. And so it lingers.
In a world that is so connected, we are all so eerily disconnected. Frightening. Fucking scary. I try to connect to what really matters everyday, but I often feel myself being sucked dry, like everybody around me has turned into vampires. Where are all the people that share energy, not just take it?
My eyes are heavy. Sometimes I feel so done. Like I want to fucking throw my computer off my lap, really hard at the wall. And then that's it. Get up and go somewhere. Where? Anywhere. Be somebody different. Somebody I always wanted to be. The somebody I compare myself to until it hurts.
I need a mental shift, or the whole fucking world to shift. I am too simple for this world's complexity. I don't want much. I don't need much. But what I do want and need is all that really matters, and that's what everyone else around me seems to be missing. And this makes me so sad. And so I'll just keep bleeding I guess...(I am so dramatic it makes me laugh).
How did all this happen?
